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Scared so had a break

February 18, 2018 - 20:36 -- Admin

I endured the crafting of another Lovecraftian email—only one typo this time and I didn't re-send it when found because it almost looked right for the absence of a pair of commas—but then had to step away from the computer lest additional hurt land. So I found Game of Thrones, set it up on the laptop, then rode the bike to break the spell. I hate this shit; having to re-live again and again what happened to me, the horror I endured and the ongoing knock-on damage it cause.

Screen wipe

February 18, 2018 - 11:35 -- Admin

I have to use a Clearwipe on the laptop screen because splatter from expectorant and other assorted disgust has sullied it to the point where I can't tell if that's punctuation or a bit of yuck.It's near nine-years-old, this machine, bought when still working and on a discount.

Fright sounds

February 17, 2018 - 17:57 -- Admin

With thanks to The Beach BoysBecause I have PTSD, if I am also physically vulnerable then my anxiety level is up and my wounded brain interprets some sounds as threats.Being half-naked and facing away from the door in a metal shed makes me feel  vulnerable. A bunch of metal on metal noises happened outside and I asked for who it was to go away because my brain treated then as scary noises. They did, but then they came back for more activity.

Ugly not-duckling

February 17, 2018 - 12:12 -- Admin

I was grappling with my past when a karmic moment dropped—their hate made me beautiful.I spent a childhood smothered in negativity from my diversion to the norm—that my mother caused—which caused on-set of depression at ten.It never left; it will never go.

Triptych

February 16, 2018 - 11:02 -- Admin

I wasn't this error prone when working but I just did a typical re-read of an email and re-sent it because there was a mistake that needed to be corrected. It was the second re-send.I know why it is; it's because when I am drafting these emails it's traumatic and my upside-down brain is screaming at me to get it done as quick as possible.

Food?!

February 15, 2018 - 18:50 -- Admin

Today in chicken land the chickens tried and decided:Granny Smith apple, skin-side-out (equals) no.Granny Smith apple, inside-facing-out or already skinned (equals) yesThree-legged cockroach who had four legs until I stepped on it that I then picked it up with my human fingers and threw it into the pen to a Polish scruff (equals) yes. theboy does not like the GS type of apple so they're all for the chickens now.

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