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Still mad

June 9, 2019 - 00:24 -- Admin

Ever since my surgeon told me my body was not my fault I've been mad. Not angry, mad. The rush of unfairness for a life I missed has left me steaming. I think I could have handled it if I'd been supported but I wasn't. So my unreasonable anger is reasonable. If time heals all wounds then it's going to take a while. Like fallen number eight long.The past; if only you could keep it there.

Triggered

June 6, 2019 - 12:31 -- Admin

The sexual abuse I suffered was mild; fondling by my child psychologist who diddled me via hypnotherapy. The hypnosis did not work and I watched through lidded eyes as he pulled my pants down and played with my junk.Twinned with that was the physical and mental debasement suffered 'neath a posh veneer.Child abuse stories make me sick.

Dickensian palace of fuckthuggery

June 2, 2019 - 12:04 -- Admin

I was having an angry brood about the before ago and I spat that out. It's true—it's as good a description of one of my schools that I've spat. The events of then are thirty years gone—but they echo in the now.It's fucked and debilitating. To be angered by past abuse is because you relived it.

Walked right into it

May 18, 2019 - 22:19 -- Admin

It was dark and I didn't see the bench so I walked right into It. The underside of my right knee struck first and I staggered abruptly and nearly fell. The left leg did the staggering and is wrenched.It was an unexpected result. I presumed smooth passage and ran into something I did not see.But I did not fall; upright I stayed. And a few steps later I was safe.That's a small comfort.

Therapy for trauma is traumatic

May 17, 2019 - 15:54 -- Admin

It's an oroborus that; that being treated for trauma with therapy is traumatic You have to re-live the upset and it makes you upset.The first 24 hours after a therapy session is when you're the most rubbery. For me the way I staved off thinking about it was to idly pick my face scar until I carved a furrow through it. I went at it for six hours before I put the cream on.

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