It was at the end of the first episode of The IT Crowd that prompted this recall when the lads of the IT department are in a series of photographs of them at the fair where they're in extreme excitement in the company of middle-aged and bored dutch prostitutes. This is the photo from the dodgem cars:
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I had "Forever Young" stuck in my head and it is a song I find irritating because to be "forever young" is to die young but, in theory, having lived the best of your years on earth which, allegedly, is your tweens to the end of your twenties.It's also the age category when we lost prime manhood to the predation of industrial warfare V dickheads who didn't understand industrial warfare.
I endured some big sounds today. The first was next door’s mower firing off through the shed wall right level with my left ear. Because I was nerding with my email D&D game I had a focus on something and endured it; it became background noise. Game of Thrones Monopoly was harder—and I went full ear muffs for that one and the midway mark because it’s an exciting game and there was a lot of noise.
I had two days of EMDR treatment for PTSD and it helped change the memory of recent attacks from initially recalling the terror I felt to the Zen of recognising and dealing with the attack. The memory had been re-framed as a positive; that I had an attack but I had got through it.We talked about where next and I have another session soon.
So that happened.
My old blue chair, which came with me to Canberra and is from a bedroom set I had in the '70s, has become my chat chair.
I've added "Survivor" to my list of battle anthems and it had just started to play when I felt a little dizzy and rested my arms on the chair. Then I find myself lying on the floor having fallen backwards but my head protected from smacking concrete by the IKEA rug.
I was back that afternoon on the day we got home after ten days away and in the shed, it happened; I started a shed rant. I caught myself yelling as I typically do when home alone and letting these moments come and stopped at about three sentences into my non-rhythmic rap slam. But I freaked thewife out, and rightly so, because I had lapsed so quickly into that bad habit.But it's not for ever and these moments, their wish to erupt and the desire to do it will die away.
Dairy is grouse; cheese, milk, iced coffee, ice cream and cream loved by previous me. Then I got adult onset allergy and went dairy free. Then A2 milk products arrived and I found I could tolerate that.Then ... the allergy went away. And that is how it come to pass last night that I ate a cheese blessed whopper burger for the first time in about five years and as the motel didn't have much in the way of cutlery that I ate it with a tea spoon.
In the aftermath of events like the Vegas shooting it's the stories of the brave that fill me with hope.